There's A War Coming, Whose Side Are You On?

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 15:58:02 GMT

holy shit, i can't believe everything just magically worked out.

like jess messeged me again on FB and told me that she would probably never see me again because her and bill wern't talking, and i gave her some relationship advice, and she gave him a call, and now they are like officially dating and shit and she told him the she was attracted to me, and it litterally all worked out. and he is grateful i basically said the things to her, he wanted to say but like the thing couldn't come from him. like this whole thing worked out fantastically, and it has to be from God or something, cause no way one chat about relationship advice where they were never gonna talk again made this all work out. and everyone is happy.

I am never this lucky.

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 03:49:02 GMT

OMG, life is so crazy.

So my roommates ex-girlfriend likes me. i say ex-girlfriend cause when i was introduced to her, she made a point of telling me ex-girlfriend, but they slept in the same room together, and said i love you to each other over the phone, and talked to each other everyday. so basically they were going out without the title, cause it was easier, then admitting they live realatively far apart and still have feelings together.

anyways so she was talking to me in a facebook chat window which i hate fb chat, about something i told her about the last time she was over here. and then i asked her when the next time she was visiting was, and she tells me that her and bill broke up, and i tried to play dumb i thought you wern't going out, and she starts telling me she has feelings for another guy, and she is confused. so i am trying to tell her, its natural to develop attractions to other people while your dating someone, and that the attraction doesn't matter, but your choices and actions are what matter the most. and then booomm!! she tells me she likes me. I typically try not to post Chat dialogue, but i kinda need to post this, cause the last time someone liked me i didn't like back, i feel i kinda handeled it the wrong way, and i can do better, and i wanna be a better person then i was to the person i was kinda a dick to cause i didn't know how to go about the situation... i still kinda feel bad about that. anyways

William
when you gonna come up here next?
10:39pmJessica
not sure....Bill and I aren't together anymore
10:40pmWilliam
well you weren't the last time you were up here either, but like are you guys not friends anymore
10:40pmJessica
we are friends, but we decided that it was over for good with us
we still talk on the phone just about every other day but yeah....its tough
10:42pmWilliam
i undersyand. i did that just recently with a girlfriend i have dated for 5 years.
its rough
10:42pmJessica
yeah, we might try later down the road
10:43pmWilliam
well good for you guys then
10:43pmJessica
yeah, we are both having a really hard time with it
but life goes on i guess
10:45pmWilliam
well if its so hard, then why do you wanna be apart right now? like what is it about him that makes you think you need to be away from him right now? i mean you don't have to actually answer that if you don't want to. but just think about that, when you talk to him, and it should get easier
10:46pmJessica
yeah, I think its the distance, we have never been apart like this
and we are both at two different points in our lives
10:48pmWilliam
see, i dunno. its a rough situation
still though, in general things are good when you guys do see each other then
?
10:49pmJessica
i don't know, I am just confused....i mean should I be attracted to other guys if I am with someone
10:49pmWilliam
yes. yes you should
this is why
because in my oppinion. we develop crushes based on our biology. people from an evolutionary stand point won't stop being attractive to you just because your dating someone.
i feel like to not develop a crush when your dating someone is a little unrealistic
and i don't think either you should be mad at yourself, nor bill be mad at you.
take it from a guy who develops alot of crushes everyday
you can't control that, but you can control your actions.
10:52pmJessica
no thats not why we aren't together
10:52pmWilliam
and as long as your not doing anything like cheating, you should be ok
no, your question was should you have feelings for another guy
did i miss something
like i know thats not the sole reason
10:53pmJessica
I am just confused in general with life right now
10:55pmWilliam
i am just saying, everytime you are attracted to someone else. don't second guess yourself, or else your gonna never think your with the right person. if things are bad, when your with bill. that makes sense to end it. or if your looking for something in a relationship bill can't or won't be able to give you. i understand that too. but if everything is fine, you shouldn't ruin a good thing cause your confused. i dunno
10:56pmJessica
yeah, thats what everyone is telling me
10:56pmWilliam
like i obviously don't want to get in the middle of your 2 relationships. but you seem happy with him, and if he still makes you happy, i don't know why you would avoid that, but you are a pretty bright person, and imsure you either know what you are doing, or will figure it ou
10:58pmJessica
hopefully, but it doesn't help that I am attracted to you
10:58pmWilliam
really
i didn't get that
well thank you
10:59pmJessica
Bill doesn't know that though
11:00pmWilliam
well i don't wanna be the one to tell him that. i like Bill alot. he could be my favorite of all the roommates, and i don't want to make it awkward between us
so, if you don't want him to know, i won't tell him
11:01pmJessica
lol, ok
11:04pmWilliam
wow i am so flattered. i am speachless. i dunno. i really like you. your really smart and a fun person. but i don't think i could do that to bill, and have to live with him too. it would be to much. i would really like to spend more time and hang out together, but at this time, i don't know i could do a relationship or anything right now, cause i respect Bill alot. not that your offering or anything. but i just want you to know where i am at sort of.
11:05pmJessica
yeah, see thats the problem I have trouble seeing myself dating anyone else
11:07pmWilliam
well let me ask you this. if you were in your ideal life. what would change
11:07pmJessica
living with my parents, my job, being confused
and I would have taken the GRE and be in grad school
11:10pmWilliam
well its good that you know thoose things. but you should know, its not to late to plan to do thoose things. signing up for the GRE isn't that hard. and you should talk to your parents, and let them know that right now i guess the set up you have is fine, but eventually you gotta move out and get a life of your own. you can't live at home when your 30
or maybe you could, but that would be my nightmare
11:11pmJessica
see my whole problem is that after my engagement ended, I had basically became ok with the idea of being alone and I actually kinda liked that idea, then I slipped and met bill, and everything changed, and now I am in the whole lost not knwoing what I am doing with my life stage and debating on whether I actually want to be with someone or stay alone
yeah, its just easy to live here since I work for them and my office is only 3 miles away
11:14pmWilliam
well yeah. the only reason i said that is because if you really wanna take the GRE and go to gradschool. you should talk to your parents about that, and make a plan with them. thats the first step.
11:14pmJessica
yeah they know i am planning on doing that, I just suck at standardized tests so I keep putting it off
11:17pmWilliam
oh i understand that
but you should really kick yourself in the ass and do it anyways.
i think it would be good for you and be a step in the right direction
11:18pmJessica
i know, I I will probably take it in November
11:21pmWilliam
but as far as the being single and meeting bill thing. i dunno
11:21pmJessica
lol, that makes two of us
11:23pmJessica
but hey I need to get to sleep, thanks for talking this stuff out with me...I owe you'
night hun
11:23pmWilliam
yeah you do
11:23pmJessica
lol
11:23pmWilliam
night

I dunno.
I can't help but be so flattered. like but nothing can happen, and my roommate aside, i don't even think i like her like that. but especially cause he is my roommates ex/"i think he is still in love with her" nothing is happening cause Bill is to good of a roommate and a person. i dunno. but at least i know i still got it. lol. i am such a badass... lol. jk. but seriously what should i do. in an ideal world, i could tell her i don't like her like that, but still be friends with her outside of my roommate (meaning wether there dating or not dating) and they would go back out and be happy with eachother. but life is just not that ideal. so how can i come to a close second. does anyone have any ideas?

stollen from jill who was stolen from someone else

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 04:15:14 GMT

Fill it out if your in the mood, and if you post it, and i see it, i will try to respond to yours. feel free to be as honest as you want in your first impressions of me, as i am a sexy beast... also i would accept dork.

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
27) Do you believe in ghosts?
28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
29) Do you swear a lot?
30) Biggest pet peeve?
31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
33) Favourite and least favourite food?
34) Do you believe in God?
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Sun, 20 Sep 2009 21:30:39 GMT

I don't know what i am doing anymore...

I'm just so scared all the time cause i just don't know what to do. I feel like lately it is going to be impossible for me to live on my own and go to college at the same time. And i think i came to that conclusion and i hate it, cause i don't know what to do from here. Living with my mom isn't an option for me anymore. like my mom would always let me move back home, so i guess it is. but like i feel bad saying this, but i am so much better off now that i don't live with my mom and that level of stress. Just all this huge drama over the wedding, and always asking to borrow money from me, and if i don't have it to give to her, or don't want to cause she spends it on frivolous things, and things i don't agree with, then i get this big guilt trip/lecture and like she just pesters me sometimes. like i can tell she just wants to pick a fight and thats it. and thats not a mentality i can move back into. which leads me back into the situation, i don't think i can afford college and live on my own at the same time.

I am scared all the time when i think about my future. I don't know what i am gonna do. I'm not good at anything. like even if i afforded college, I wasn't that great at college, and i struggled all the time through it just to have grades somewhere between a B-D+ depending on how hard the course is. Even if i studied or put alot of work into it. but then not going to college is so much worse. Cause you just can't do anything.

Like what if my life never gets any better then what it is right now? I saw that brea wrote that she was looking through her old live journal entries so i started looking through her old live journal entries from like high school, and life seemed so much easier then, and i just feel like i had alot more opportunity then. Dating her was the best thing i have ever did with my life. And that wasn't meant to be which is fine. like i don't look back and wish i was still dating her because we had problems, but when i dated her, not only did i have someone to be there for me as i went through stuff like this, i feel like i had better opportunities. It's because of her i wanted to go to college in the first place. Its because of her i moved out of my moms house. I just was a better person with her, and had more opportunity and maybe even more ambition. Plus i had fun with her. I honestly wish so much happiness and good things on her, and i can't wait to see her dreams come true after she gets into grad school. If anyone deserves them its her, because i can honestly say my life has been better because she was in it. and not just her, her but her brother and her mom as well.

I dunno, i just am scared, and i don't know what i am going to do. I can't seem to stop crying today when i think about it, which i hate crying. Like i don't look down upon crying, but like it doesn't make me look cool, and i don't feel better when i do it. I hate feeling that vulnerable. I dunno, but the one thing i do have is time to figure this stuff out. I got till May till my lease is up, to figure out where i am gonna live and how i will support myself, cause its not like i am not able to support myself now. all my bills are paid on time, and i don't have problem paying them, but i don't seem to be able to better myself either and i absolutely hate that. I can barely save any money, which what i do save is going to go towards a car, and i just feel like again i can't be on my own and go to school at the same time. Cause i am not smart enough to get a scholarship, and I can't get student loans on myself, and thoose freak the hell out of me anyways. I sometime feel really envious of everyone and i hate that too. Like i hate the people who if your car breaks down to the point it is undriveable, you know your parents will be able to pay for it. and whose parents have good enough credit to cosign your student cosign stuff for you. I get so envious and then i feel bad, because with all my friends i want good things for them, and i feel bad that even for a second, I wish they knew how lucky they were. There my friends, and one thing i learned from Mr. Curtis in highschool who everyone hated, but i never really did, but he told me you look for friends who are better then you. and that was a new concept for me my freshman year because i had a lot of friends who were like me that i wouldn't say were better or worse. But he was right about that and I am glad for all my friends who are able to do what they want, and i am happy they have the opportunity to follow there dreams, but why do i get so jealous sometimes. How much opportunity they have and it bothers me so much when I start to feel that way. and i absolutely hate seeing friends who have the opportuinity and they just waste it.

I dunno. I need to end this thing on a positive note, because the whole purpose of this isn't just to have a pity party or anything. I dunno, the one thing i do have though on my side is time. i do have time to figure things out, and its not like i am failing at life and losing my apartment or James or anything. my world isn't crashing, its just no longer spinning. I just feel like i am stuck treading water and not really doing anything and i hate that more then failing. that why i switched my jobs, cause i hate being complacent with where i am at. and i just don't feel like i am good at anything, but i know i have more potential then where i am at now, and i just scared, what if i never reach that potential i see in myself. and that is a very scary thing to me. and then i look back at the times, where i feel like i was doing something, and i just get sad. but i feel just writing this all out has helped, even if no one reads it. I just need to figure out what i am doing. and all this uncertanty is very scary to me. like even when i quit my job to move to mount pleasant in with my girlfriend who though i loved, we had broken up several times before, and got into our fair share of fights. I moved in to a new apartment with new bills (all of which were in my name) and had roommates i hated, and didn't really have anything going for me, other then i was with Brea. I still was sure i was doing the right thing being there with no way of knowing how i would be able to afford any of it, and everything somehow worked out. I just feel like my problem is, i am not sure i am doing the right thing anymore, and i don't know what the right thing is. I just hope i find it soon...

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 06:30:33 GMT

so things have been different up here.

I am really starting to miss people back home right now. :( I wanna go home so bad to see them, but my family is pretty broken right now, and i don't really know how to deal with that a whole lot. so going home may or may not be a good idea in that aspect. because i can't be away from the family problems i have no power to fix, if i have to stay at my mom or sisters house most of the time, or depend on them for a ride.

So i got new roommates and they are pretty cool people for the most part. I like them, and they seem to get along fine with james, except he is kinda sorta afraid of them. like he wants to be by them if i am at work or am hanging out with them, but if they just entered the room, fuck that, he doesn't like them. its actually cool cause he is a lady's dog anyways. But anyways, they all knew each other before moving in, and all work at the same bar called the wayside. Its a bar basically right on campus, that you walk into and both feel to old, and to young for. but i have went there twice in the last week to hang out with them at work with there friend Rider who is also pretty cool. he is like an unofficial fifth roommate. Typically i avoid the bar, because i don't drink alot, i hate cigerette smoke, and i make an ass out of myself meeting new people im not introduced too. But I am trying to make friends with my roommates, cause my last roommates kinda sucked, except Brea. and even she wasn't the greatest all the time ;) .

I dunno though. trying to make new friends actually only seems to make me miss my old friends. Does anyone else ever feel that way when making new friends. I dunno, i do all the time. Especially if they are all like established friends and i am the new guy. And it's weird cause we all hang out, and i don't feel left out at all, i just feel like they clearly have more history together, and that makes me feel awkward sometimes, because when they talk about that thing that happened a year ago, I can only listen really.

I dunno though, again i do go up to hang out with them at there work, cause i am trying to be more brave and come outside my shell/comfort zone. I am just trying to give it time, but again in the mean time I miss ya girls, cause outside of mark to my knowledge, lets face it, its mainly women reading it, and mark kinda qualifies as a woman anyways. lol.

other then that, i switched from optical to accounting on my own free will at work. It docked my pay about -$.30 an hour and gives me about 6-4 less hours a week. I dunno, i feel a little crazy for doing it, but here is my reasoning. I should still be able to afford all my bills and stuff which is what i mainly care about. and even though its a little bit taking a step back, i feel like with training in accounting there is more opportunity to move up into management if i want. plus, I know all i need to know to work at sams club in the optical department and its a little bit boring cause i wasn't really growing professionally. Anyways, so i am doing accounting now, but like i feel jinxed at accounting. cause like things are happening when i work, that arn't even my fault that never happens ever in the club. today our printer jammed and we couldn't get our morning reports (which i know seems small but was kinda at least a mid range deal) and the store is off balance but when you break it down all the departments do balance, and just fucked up shit thats not even my fault that makes every shift i work difficult. My boss more or less thinks its great cause when these problems that have happened once or not at all in the entire 2 1/2 years the store has been opened, happen to me when i am by myself i'll know what to do. Um. no I won't. that won't be for at least 3 months from now. right now i am just trying to get the basics down to work a shift that goes smoothly by myself. if i can ever have a shift go smoothly. lol. cause all these exceptions for things that arn't suppose to happen in the first place is confusing.

I dunno though. on the bright side, i still get to sit on my ass all day, listen to the radio or my ipod/cd's and the time seems to fly by really fast. like i feel 8 hours goes by in like what i feel is 3 hours. I am always like holy shit, it's not 3 o'clock already which is good cause optical dragged more often then not. oh, and now i can also put a face to $40,000.00 in cash in my hands. which is nice. on the down side, i have to worry about my mental state going into work more because its easy for me to burn out and then my brain goes into lock down and i can't seem to do any math right cause i am frustrated. Also right now i am training, but i think this week, i'll start being by myself. and thats how i'll basically work now. locked in a room that very few people have access to, counting and frustrated with no one to talk to, to get me through the day. i'll actually miss talking with customers at optical. there was actually an old guy who comes in regularly and drops off poems he rights himself and gives them to me so i can read them. There kinda weird, but there better then marks crazy ass joker poems and some of his poems rhyme and have rhythm which marks poems rarely have either, and more often then not, they make sense too.

actually i know i am teasing mark cause he is my friend and i can make fun of him all i want, but i actually am trying not to hate, cause i think creativity is good, even if it makes no sense and has no structure. which for the record i also need to get this out about marks poems.

dude, your an Architect. how can your poems have no structure. seriously Moe!

anyways i am just rambling now, and i think this is sufficiently long enough that few people will read it anyways. but sometimes i just feel good writing it. and if people actually read it and have something nice to say, well thats just gravy. which by the way is the best part of Thanksgiving. cause without gravy you have dry turkey and stuffing, and mashed potatoes just seem naked. but again i am rambling...

So i love you guys and i miss you more then you prolly know. and goodnight. ;)

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 21:06:40 GMT

so i was scrolling through my random sites i go to, and i saw a website with a bunch of harry potter insults. my favorite is.

Yo momma so fat her patronus is a cake

then there are these i also like.

Yo mamma so stupid, she thinks Sirius Black is the soul station on satellite radio
Yo mama’s so ugly the Dementor’s Kiss was swapped out for a hearty handshake and a promise to give her a call sometime.
your mom is so fat if she confronted a boggart it would morph into a treadmill
Yo momma’s so fat her wand is a Slim Jim

Tue, 21 Jul 2009 01:45:04 GMT

Have you ever thought what it would be like when your parents died? I kinda have several times. I always kinda felt like my mom would probably die in a hospital, from like a heart attack or stroke, or possibly some type of drugs that were accidentally mixed that wern't suppose to be. I always imagined my step dad pete if he outlived my mom, shoving a gun in his mouth cause if my mom died, literally he would have nothing else in the world to live for, and though he loves me and my sister, probably wouldn't see us as a reason to live, at one point in time anyways i thought that, but if he didn't commit suicide, i always thought he would die something age and stress related like a sudden heart attack, or like a brain annurism that would happen specifically when he was mad at something. most likely me or my sister. I always imagined my sister outliving me, cause girls typically do outlive guy's and though she is older, she isn't that much older. also she does less stupid stuff then me. but when she does die, i imagined it would be after a long and hopefully happy life, probably in her sleep smiling. And i always thought i would die, from something just utterly disappointing. like the passenger seat of someone else's car where like i was the only one that died from like tetnis or something from the car crushing my toe or something.

I dunno, i have always thought that about how my family would die, until recently. like everything is fine and stuff, and nobody died, but lately i just have envisioned it different and its weird.

Sun, 05 Jul 2009 01:17:36 GMT

Milo at IGN.com

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someone making fun of the impressive technology.

Jobbie Nooner!!!

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 14:21:42 GMT

So friday was an excellent day.

Me mark and Lauren all went to Jobbie Nooner, and needless to say it was alot of fun. Me and Mark made the decission to go in speedo's. It was actually great cause i liked how my speedo looked on me shockingly enough. and also needless to say we were the only people there wearing speedo's. It felt like i painted my chest for the CMU game again. Like I was an instant Celebrity. you would say look at the speedo guy and there was only 2 people out of thousands you were talking about. But to be fair, like there were an enormous amount of people who thought it was awesome we went in speedo's, and an enormous amount of people who would yell "FAGS!!!". The later were my favorite cause thats just a winning personality if you ask me, to scream it at the top of your lungs in a crowd of strangers, at 2 people that didn't give a shit. me and mark agreed though it was about 50/50. I personally don't see what the big deal is about them. It basically the exact same thing as the bottom to a womens bathing suit. Also speedo's are olympic swimwear. Everyone looved how fucking micheal phelps looks in a speedo and though he is more muscular then me, he looks like a fucking chode (at least in the face). they may be pretty unflatoring that may be true, but i have nothing to be ashamed of (in my oppinion) and i have never been prudish.

anyways it was great, but not really what i expected. but i did say if it was half as good as what i thought it would be, it would be a great time. well it was about half of what i thought it would be. there wasn't really many girls on boats that wanted to show boobs for beads like you here about. i was kinda sad. really its a bunch of girls who want to get beads to make it look like there cool and down with it,with out showing boobs. though i did see like 4 pairs on friday (which is more then i see on a normal day) it was less then one an hour and how i heard about it in the past is its basically a topless party. so again, fun but not what i expected, but i didn't go for the boobs anyways, i went to go have fun drinking on a boat and i did. We have pictures and some of them turned out awesome. I wanted to post them, but i prolly won't because of the whole employers looking at facebook stuff. which i think is gay to begin with.

Ok there were lots of stories i could tell from friday but i typically lately have been writing huge posts, so i will try to keep them short and sweet.

We got our picture taken with Mark Hackel on his jet ski, me and lauren. he laughed i was in a speedo but he rolled with it and was a good guy just like you would expect him to be. I like that guy.

I kissed a random girl. like it was weird how it started. like at first she was a little drunk and was like "OMG! You two are wearing speedo's. Ok i gotta ask you why." and she looked at us like she was judging us kinda harshly and hating on us at first. but then i replied back "Cause if you got it flaunt it, and i got it." and she looked like she was checking me out a little bit and i said again "what i got it" and then she like smiled and said something i forgot and then mark asked if she wanted to take a couple pictures with us and she did, so she took like 2 or 3 pics with mark and mark made his creepy face he does in pictures that he thinks is cool (its not but hey its all good) and then she took a picture with me and kissed my cheek, and then i said hold on i want to tget another picture and so for that picture she apparently kinda licked the side of my face.(i ironically didn't notice till after i saw the picture) and then she kept saying to me "you guys are fun!" and then i made a move and she responded and boom goes the dynamite. unfortunately thats the end of the story, we basically left after that. I told mark looking back on that i should tried to get the digits or something or at least a name. but it was kinda bad ass that i didn't. i've never kissed someone i didn't know before (who actually liked it).

other then that some heavy set guy went up to me and mark and was all like you guys have more balls then anyone here for coming here in a speedo that takes serious balls man. and then guy walked past us as he was saying that and was all like "Fags!!" and the guy was all like "they have bigger balls then you man!!" and that guy said something else either making fun of him or us, i forget, and the guy who was a fan of us takes his super soaker that i didn't even know he had at the time and just shoots him in the face with it. and the guy was pissed, he looked like he wanted to kick his ass, but then realized that the fan of us was clearly bigger then him and left with his tail between his legs. it was awesome. I am going on record right now!! that guy had bigger balls then me or mark and was way cooler. he ended up posing in a picture with us with like 2 girls or something.

there is still alot more i could say but this is getting longer and maybe i'll make a part 2 post later with some more stories.

last thing i am gonna mention. me and mark were basically treated like a peice of meat. women seriously would just grab our ass and then walk away. it was kinda awesome...

oh and i got serious sunburns!! :( like they are blistering so its serious, but i had fun so it was so worth it.

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 04:51:50 GMT

this just made me laugh. it may be old. but funny

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 16:45:24 GMT

Fri, 29 May 2009 22:54:23 GMT

Yay!!! i finally got my new cell phone. Basically what happened to my old phone for all of you wondering was when i moved back into my room after me and brea broke up sometime in the winter. anyways, I got in the habit of plugging my phone in to charge at night and putting it on the windowcill. and it worked out pretty well for a long time. Till one fateful day i charged my phone on the windowcill like i had everynight before and went to bed. then in the middle of the night i woke up all hot and opened up my window (since it is now spring) and went to bed. turns out, it rained that night and when i woke up my phone was sitting in a puddle for what i bet was a couple hours. That sucked. Ironically my phone will still turn on, but none of the buttons will register as anything but the end call button (turn on/off button) so all my contacts are in there and i am unable to get them out.

Because of that, i need everyones phone numbers again. my phone number is still the same, but if you text or call me and tell me who it is, i will save your phone number in my phone again so we can still stay in contact. incase you can't find my phone number or something i typically don't like to put it anywhere publically like LJ, but i will for now on here and facebook and take it down in a couple weeks. it's 586-719-2359.

oh also, if i didn't have your phone number before and you didn't have mine, and you just wanna talk to a badass, or someone cool. feel free to call or text also. if you have acess to my LJ, i prolly wanna stay in touch anyways so i would appreciate it.

Wed, 29 Apr 2009 01:38:01 GMT

ok, so i am not in the greatest of mindsets right now, so forewarning... but this is livejournal, and i truly think the should change the name of this website cause nobody writes in it like a journal anymore... well im going to write like a journal today like i did when i started this thing, and not everything in my head is the brightest of tones. there is life to me behind any jokes i make or even what people usually think of when they think of me. and thoose other parts like the jokes and the other stuff are a big part of me, i wouldn't be me without them, but there is more to me then what people know and maybe by writing as a journal i can share some of that with you.

so i think i need to get a hobby that gets me out of the apartment. but i don't know what. I mean i am kinda in my apartment just feeling kinda lonely right now, and thats ok. its ok to be lonely every once in awhile. but i dunno, i just keep thinking that i'm not in highschool, and i'm not in college, and the only thing i really leave the apartment for is work which sucks. and i just keep thinking what am i doing to move on in my life. out there i truely believe is someone for me thats not Brea and i'm to scared to leave the apartment and be rejected by someone i don't even know. and i'm not even talking like dating rejection, i'm even afraid of friendship rejection. its seriously almost paralyzing which is ridiculous to me. but my situation will not change if i can't change also with it. but change is scary especially when your by yourself. but it has never been my style to not try everything i can to get what i want... so why am i so compelled to give into my fear now. you know, dating brea was one of the best things i have ever done in my life, and i truly belive it. i believe she helped me to get to a better place in my life, and taught me alot of things in life i don't think i would have been able to see otherwise. i still very much love her now and always, but i'm not in love with her like i was before. I am in love with her like you are in love with someone when you know it will never work out with them. and i'm ready to find a greater love in my life now cause i know its out there. i believe there is someone you are meant to be with out there for everyone. But i can't help but feeling like what if that person is out there, but i just can't ever find them. or what if i find the wrong one and i'm too stupid to realize it. and thats why i think i am too afraid to do anything about it...

you know for all the good things brea did in my life which were alot, i feel like i paid a price in dating her for so long. I use to be less fearful. I use to be perfectly fine by myself, and making life changing decisions. I mean i left my mom's house junior year to move in with a father i saw 4 times a year, in a city where i knew no one, and i knew in advance none of my friends would come and visit where i had an exgirlfriend living there who blatenlty was lying about me to my stepmom who at the time was believing thoose lies. but i didn't care, i did it anyways because i didn't fear being alone. i didn't fear offending people, i just did the things i knew i had to do, and i didn't care how it effected me. I knew moving from my mom's was right so i did it, and i didn't care if i would be rejected at a new school, and didn't care about being lonely. I felt very alone until i dated brea, but before that i didn't care. and it wasn't like i was shutting people out. well my mother would say i shut her out, and i kinda did on the everyday personal details of my life, but if you knew my mom you would understand why, and if you don't know my mom, take my word for it. i felt and still feel like, even though my mom has the best of intentions, she can't let go and let me grow up. and information can be power, and in giving certain details would give her power over me. i guess that may sound a little mean, but i guess the best way of describing my relationship in highschool with my mom is i felt i had to protect myself from my mom being overprotective of me so i could learn to stand on my feet and be an adult, and my mom wanted me to be her little son again and super close and never grow old. which is sad because i understand that feeling, but it is/was unrealistic because i got to grow up to be an adult. and thats what i am talking about, before i dated brea (and it's not her fault that when i dated her i wasn't lonely and had something to lose) i was ready to take on the world, but now that we broke up, i'm to afraid of the world rejecting me, and its hindering me from moving on in my life. and i don't know how to get back to how i was before, or if there is even a way of going back to that. and even in that perenthesis is the thing. dating her i had something to lose and thats why i think i am scared of all this stuff. and now i lost her and have nothing to lose again, but i just can't figure out why i am afraid still. Maybe i am afraid of finding something i love enough that i would be afraid to lose that too...

you know whoever said there is nothing to fear besides fear itself is a smart guy, cause it is completly true. i think my fear of breaking up with brea when we were dating was worse then the actual break up. i think i built up my fear into something worse then the actual act was. but the thing that guy forgets is the thing your afraid of, there is still a reason to be afraid of it. cause whatever it is still sucks. i think of another example of this, and i don't think i said this publically, but i am afraid of lightning/thunder. i don't think i am as afraid of that as i am of being alone, but its still a little bad. i don't like it. my fear of it started because a lightning bolt in a storm once came within 3 feet of my head and i still have a very vivid memory of that storm. which is why i am afraid of it. but i think i get so afraid in lightning in storms that its down right stupid sometimes. do you know what the odds of getting struck by a lightning bolt is. its ridiculous to be afraid of every lightning bolt when the odds of getting hit with one is astronmical. so i think sometimes my fear just builds on itself sometimes till im just afraid to be afraid. but the thing is getting hit with a lightning bolt if it did happen would still suck. and i think in that statement its missing that aspect of it. i feel like that statement of there is nothing to fear but fear itself is only good if there is a seed of an outcome that would suck if it did come true. and the fear will make that seed grow until it just gets ridiculous.

maybe thats going on with the my fear of the me being alone thing. i think i need to face that fear before i can have a sucessful relationship again. so i again i am right back where i was when i started this entry where i need to get out of the apartment more besides work. and i don't go to bars really, cause even though i occasionally drink, thats not really my thing. So i think i need a hobby other then videogames. I dunno, i was thinking maybe taking a improv class or something. or joining a volleyball team or something. but i gotta do something. i think i'm going to try to write more too. not in livejournal necessarily but like write a story or a script of some kind. maybe if i come up with something good, i can make it into a movie. i think that could be fun and awesome, i just gotta find something to inspire me. last time when i broke up with michelle, i wrote this poem called Escaping the Pain. it is easily the best thing i have ever written. it rhymed cause even though poems don't have to rhyme, the best poems do so suck it mark ;p . i remember amy scheffer (at the time) gave me a music sheet book so i could practice counting music cause she found out i was gonna move back in with my mom back home and was trying to convince me to join the battery (we all know how that turned out) and i wrote it down on the inside cover of one of her music sheet books. then i figured i had to give that back to amy eventually so i typed it on my computer back in the day after i wrote it down there. gave the book back, and then eventually my computer got a virus and i lost my copy of it. so the only copy of it is in a sheet music book somewhere at amy's mom's house, and i remember i asked if she could find it so i could retype another copy of it, and she said she would try to find it, but anyone who's been to her moms house knows how easy it would be to find. especially cause amy has 100 different books with sheet music all in different locations. so its litterally like finding a needle in a hay stack. and then she moved to japan (though she is back now.) still though its also possible her mom through out all that suff. but either way, i think that helped me move on after michelle, and even though i am done with brea and kinda moved on from that, i do wonder if writing will help me heal myself to get rid of some of that fear.

basically the entire point of this post is to say im afraid of alot of things and have alot of growing to do to move on with my life. people may be pissed or confused or whatever they are, but i think this helped to give me clarity on myself. and who cares what people think of me anyways!! <-- see i am learning ;)

(by the way. i didn't mean growing up though, there is a difference because i am more mature and grown up then some people give me credit for, but i don't blame them. Afterall, there just to blind to see it!)

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 01:21:29 GMT

so i am playing ralph biggs in rockband 2. thats right the battery instructor mono e mone in a drum showdown. so far the score

ralph 7 - Crazy Bill 2

thats right i beat him at im right behind you charlene by steven and the colberts and the middle by jimmy eat world. though to be fair, he had a higher accuracy and a longer streak in the middle. the only reason i beat him was by using my star power when i had a bigger multiplier. but still a win is a win.

were on a 5 minute break, so more when we are done.

Crazy Bill

Sun, 26 Apr 2009 02:28:50 GMT

i forgot how much i liked talking to my sister's ex boyfriend Justin.

quote of the day

"SPANKY6681 (10:26:38 PM): they just mad cause yo pimp hand was heavy"

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 04:02:28 GMT

ok, so i got a puppy. his name is James. he is a labrador retreiver/german sheperd mix. he is fuckin badass. i got pictures on facebook and stuff, you guys should check them out.

anyways, andy gave me a good idea. he thinks i should get James (a very nonvicious dog who i would raise to be nonvicious) a spiky collar. qouting that it would be pretty badass. I do think it would be badass. but at the same time, i was looking for other peoples oppinions on the subject.

Fri, 17 Apr 2009 00:45:52 GMT

ok, so hypothetically speaking for all you girls out there...

lets say we are about to have sex, and i wanna make it kinky. what is the polite way for me to ask you to wear a paper bag over your head, cause your body's rockin, but you have a fugly face? theoretically speaking of course.

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 05:50:16 GMT

So i just got a new laptop. i think it is pretty awesome. I thought i should update about it, but its getting late. but a new laptop is one of 3 projects i am trying to do, and the first one i can now check off of the list.

the other 2 are get a dog of my own, and fix my car.

but before i go, just a side note. I hate it when you get a new computer and there is a bunch of shit on it. And i don't mean alot of useful programs. I mean stupid shit like 60 day trials of some dial up service. WHY THE HELL WOULD I WANT THAT PRELOADED ON MY COMPUTER!! So gay.

anyways, i haven't been online in awhile cause my desktop broke. eventually fixing that will be a project too, but for now, i got time. just wanted to say hi to everyone, and now good night.

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 00:01:13 GMT

1) Favorite object in the room your in?
My Tv. It's pretty awesome.

2) Have you ever smoked weed?
No, i think its pretty gross. even if it was legeal, i still wouldn't for similar reasons on why i don't smoke cigarettes and they are legeal.

3) Do you own guns?
yeah, Nurf!! Represent bitches.

4) Whats your favorite drink?
thats tough to be specific, but i'm going with most juices.

5) Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
if he puts on any type of gloves when he enters the room i do. or if he has a needle of any type.

6) What do you think of when you hear hot dog?
Some one is having a "Hopping" 80's party. Hot Dawg!

7) Favorite song?
Verve Pipe - The Freshman!

side not, people who can't decide are the wuss people who prolly can't pick what restaurant they want to go to for dinner either. it's stupid, just pick, it's the fun of the question.

8) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Baby blood. It de-ages me. Spoiler - Thats how benjamin button did it.

other then that, it would have nothing to do with a answer for favorite drink.

9) Can you do push ups?
Yeah i'm gonna take a stance right now. If you can't do 2 push up's, your prolly going to die soon, if not from health, some one will punch you and you will litterally shatter.

10) Can you do a chin up?
Does it count if i jump off the ground and make it up to the bar with the momentum cause then yeah. if not, no. That actually really upsets me cause i can bench more then my body weight, but for some reason i can do a chin-up.

11) What's your favorite food?
Alfredo, but only if it's done right.

12) Your pet peeves?
Women driving! Also people doing Dane Cook Jokes, that do the joke wrong!

13) Ever been in a car wreck?
Yeah, my favorite one was one where i was a passenger in Marks car where after he crashed, Our Boss came out, and then his neighbor, then a different co-worker from a different car. it litterally felt like the dane cook joke where people just come from the bushes and was all like "Accident, i think i'll watch for awhile." (which is why even when people do that joke wrong, i still think it's funny. not when THEY do it, but when i hear it on the Cd after.)

14) Do you like to work on your birthday?
Yeah, cause i don't give a shit about my birthday so much, as the weekend of my birthday.

15) What's one trait that you hate about yourself?
I am always the "nice guy" and women want assholes.

16) What's your middle name?
Martin.
Side Note : i copied this survey from my friend Bobby, and his answer to this question was Roy, and it just occurred to me his initials is BRA (Jr.) that's pretty funny.

17) Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?
My answers are so much better then Bobby's.
There's no more good Porn on the internet anymore
I'm a Badass!

18) Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
what the hell. why yesterday. what if i didn't go shopping yesterday. Now i feel excluded from this question and that's racist!

19) Name 3 drinks you drink regularly?
Pepsi
Mt. Dew
Chlorine, i drink some every time i go swimming.

20) What's your job?
I help blind people see. I guess that makes me kinda like Jesus in a way. (that's just a joke, but saying it like that made me feel a little more badass!)

21) 2 current hates right now?
I hate it when people don't have an identity outside of there signifcant other.
I hate it when people raise there voice and pretend like that makes them more right, about what they are arguing about.

22) Do your friends love you?
Yeah, but that's because i am incredibly good looking.

23) How did you bring in the New Year?
Up in Mt. Pleasant. (by the way, the Mt. does not mean Mountain)

24) Who would you like to meet?
A hot girl, who is also nice and funny, and likes nice guys. which reminds me of a joke from a movie i like i'm gonna modify a little. 4 people were all walikng down 4 streets and meet at a four
way stop. one was Santa, The Easter bunny, A Hot Girl, and a Hot Girl who is also nice and funny and likes Nice Guys. which one arrived at the fourway stop first.

The Answer is the Hot girl. why cause the other 3 don't Fucking exist. (i prolly quoted it a little bad even modified, but i only saw that movie twice and it was like 5 years ago.)

25) Name three people who will complete this?
Santa Clause
The Easter Bunny
and a hot girl who is also nice and funny and likes Nice Guys.

27) What shirt are you wearing?
CMU hoodie, also a plain white cotton T shirt.

28) What bottoms are you wearing?
My Work out pants, that i bought with the intention to work out in, but i think i only worked out wearing them like once, over a year ago.

29) Can you whistle?
Yeah, but i'm impressed at the people who can whistle with 2 fingers in there mouth. I try that but all i do is spit.

30) What will you be doing in a year from now?
going back in time to tell me in the me in the present what i am doing one year in the future. which will be going back in time to tell me the answer to a survey question i don't fucking know.

31) Would you be a pirate?
No, Survey sucks! plus to many dudes on a ship. There were like no female pirates, and if someone fucking says Keirra Knightly im gonna tell them just how dumb they are, and possibly litterally slap some sense into them.

32) What songs do you sing in the shower?
I typically don't sing in the shower, but i do think out loud in the shower. So if you are ever over, you may here me have a conversation with myself, of something i think i should have said in another conversation in the past but didn't because i didn't think of it at the time, while i am taking a shower.

33) Favorite girl's name?
Tara Wrist . (say it outloud)

34) Favorite boy's name?
Al Kider (say it outloud)

funny side note, i was watching the Chasers war on everything and they bought a plane ticket in both of thoose names and was "late" for the plane, so they said over the loud speaker, "Can Al Kider and Tara Wrist please board plane (they beeped out the plane terminal number), your plane is about to leave. " I thought it was great. cause after she said that the desk worker was freaking out.

35) What's in your pocket?
Whats with all these fucking questions. quit excluding me because i don't have anything in my pockets. I'm telling you, the makers of this survey are excluding me because they are Racist.

36) Last person that made you laugh?
Megan from Work.

37) Best toy as a child?
OMG this is the question that is making me think of the most because i had some pretty badass toys. but i'm gonna go with the White Power Ranger Zord i had. i think it was the Tiger Zord. it actually changed too.

38) Worst injury you've ever had?
A Kick in the balls.

39) Do you love where you live?
I do love Mt. Pleasant, but i'm not sure how long i can live up here for, but i still got some time in this place.

40) Do you give good advice?
I like to think so, but not if i am being sarcastic.

41) Who is your loudest friend?
Me, i admit. i am kinda a loud guy, and i don't even realize it most of the time. and yes, i can be my own friend.

42) How many cats do you have?
1 or 5 depending on which house i am at. Its too many cats.

43) Where is next place you want to travel to?
Rome, but like i would want to go down on the floor of the coliseum, and wear like armor and pretend to battle with my friend or something, but i hear no one is allowed to go on the ground floor there which sucks. But i still think it would be badass.

44) How many dogs do you have?
none, but i want to get one in the next 2 months.

45) Do you do drugs?
I get hopped up on the advil. actually though the funny thing is, i don't. I hate taking drugs of anytype at all because my mom takes alot of medicine and some of which i think she takes at the first sign of discomfort at all, and i don't want to have that type of mentality. and were not talking in extreme pain, were talking like leg falls asleep pain or something like that. it's like people who get a little frustrated over like something completely stupid, that over time can't function if they don't have a cigarette. I think that mentality is really stupid and i'm afraid it will happen to me, ironically because of my mom.

46) Do you drink?
Honestly i drink like once every month and that's prolly over exaggerating.

47) What are your favorite pair of shoes?
Well i have 3 pairs, and i feel like this question is more geared towards women which is sexism, but i'm gonna go with my pimp shoes (or the pair of shoes i bought for Prom, that i wear to like special occasions now). i have gotten more compliments on this pair of shoes in a single day then i have gotten on any other item of clothing i have ever worn in the entirety of my life combined. everyone loves thoose shoes.

48) Are you in love right now?
does myself count!

49) What were you doing 12 AM this morning?
I think sleeping because i only got like 4 hours sleep over the last 48 hours so i went to bed at like 11.

50) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
"What time is it....(10:15) Damn it, i need to go back to bed!" but unfortunate for me i could not go back to sleep.

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 09:35:51 GMT

I am just amazed, at how some people can just show a blatent lack of respect to other people. even worse just be down right disrespectful to people. It's fucked up, and i just can't believe it. Or maybe i can believe it, but i'm in just too much shock to process it. Still people can be dicks.

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 09:17:45 GMT

ok, so friday was a crazy day.

i basically kept it really low key all morning, stayed in my pajama's, and watched Hercules (Disney movie). so around 3:30pm i get a text from simone, and she was like you should come home and be my date to Angela's birthday party. And at first i didn't think i was going to be able to go, so i called mark to see if he would mind filling in for me, cause she was desperate to find someone and didn't think i would be able to go cause i live 2 1/2 hours away, but thought she would try anyways, but then it turned out i was able to go down there and the 3 of us went. It was nuts cause i didn't get in HTP till 7:30-8:00pm ish and i left around 11:30am the next day, so i was home for like 15 hours, which is by far the furthest i have driven to spend the shortest amount of time with someone.

Anyways, again, so Me Mark and Simone went to Ang's house and did cake and stuff for like an hour or so, but after that we went to Boogie Fever in Ferndale, to go dancing and stuff. Now that was an experience for me, because neither me nor Mark have ever been to a club before. plus sometimes i get embarressed when the cat see's me dancing in the room by myself let alone in front of other people. But OMG, it was so much fun. i have no idea why i have never done that before. we have a ton of stories about what happened, and i'll try to share a couple with you. hopefully i can remember all of them.

So, i brought my Ipod with me to the club, cause i have the IPOD touch, and you can download a bunch of Apps to it and stuff. well i have this free Pick-up lines App, where they give you a bunch of really cheesy pick up lines. So for a kinda free birthday present to Ang, me and mark let her pick out her favorites, and we were both going to try one out for her. it was great. I remember Mark's was "I know i'm not groceries, but i can see your checking me out." "and i forgot the one Ang gave to me. Anyways, so i had alot of approach anxiety about this. like it was nuts, i think mark did too, so we were dancing with the girls (since pretty much all the other guys that went with us didn't dance at all, still there were like 5 girls in our group that i only had to share with Mark, so i wasn't complaining) and anyways, mark leaves for a second and talks to someone, but i didn't see who. anyways, he comes back all excited cause he did his pick-up line, and he got rejected but he did it and it was awesome. So now i'm pissed, cause i may be nervous, but no way i'm gonna let that asshole out do me. So i wait like 5 minutes or so, and see a girl dancing by herself, so i walk up to her, and forgot what i was assined, so i made one up and said "You must be a magnet, cause i am really attracted to you" and again i got rejected. so i go back and i'm all like yeah, i did it. so mark wanted to know, so i point out the girl, and it turns out it was the same girl mark gave his line too. so it was funny, and i felt a little bad for her, but it was all in good fun.

anyways, 96.3 WDVD was there that night, and it was actuallly good club music i thought. no rap, it was all like micheal jackson and prince and Vanilla Ice and like alot of awesome 80's songs. so again, i was nervous about dancing in front of other people at first, but i know enough about dancing to know that there is no such thing as guys dancing cool. girls can, but guy's can't. the trick for guys to be an awesome dancer, is to just be a tiny bit ridiculous, and don't over do it , but be confident about it. Also, i came to have fun, so i thought who really cared, so i was going to dance anyways. I dunno, it was weird, cause i started off imitating things, like the "A pup named scooby doo dances" which were awesome, and then it moved on to making fun of the vanila ice dances, to Mc hammer (there was a video monitor and to a couple songs there were the music video's to some of the song so it wasn't that hard to do). but then i also started to making fun of people who do karate to dance songs and pretends that is dancing, to like really old school 80's dancing and just stuff i thought was really funny or awesome in my head. oh and i also did a couple dance moves that guy's don't typically do, that only girls do in like rap video's like shaking your chest and butt. oh, and i had the entire group stop dancing in the middle of a new kids on the block song, so we could all do our best group boy band pose. again, i thought it was funny, so since i was going to have a good time, i figured what the hell. anyways, it was nuts cause like sometime after this really hot woman approach's mark and says something to him for like 3 seconds, that i can't hear, and then approach's me and is like, you have really awesome dance moves, you should teach me them. and like definetly she was hitting on me. i honestly couldn't believe it cause girls don't approach me and hit on me. they flirt with me after i start it, or they will joke around and tease me, but they don't approach me and hit on me, and she was fucking hot. so now i have this problem, because here is a beautiful girl who wants me to teach her some dance moves, only, there is literally no rhyme or reason to anything i am doing out on the floor other then i was trying to have a good time, and was doing dances i either thought were funny, or really bad imitations. so how do you teach moves your litterally making up as you go along. i didn't know what to do. so i forgot what i said exactly, but i said something like "i dunno, you just have fun." So i try to change the subject so she doesn't find out i'm a fraud. so i introduced myself, and found out her name was lindsey, and she asked if i came here alot, and i said no it was my first time. and i ask her if she lives around here (which was stupid to do, because, DUH!! why else would she be there!!) and she said yeah and that she has a house and a real job and told me she was 44 years old. (when she said that, in my head i swear i heard a record scratch in my head, and like the music stop) so now i'm praying this conversation doesn't turn south and she asks me how old i am, to which my response would be 23. thats right, she would have been legally able to drink before i was even born. So then i really blew it cause to dodge that question and response, i was all like "oh, well thats cool that your 44 and your still going out and know how to have a good time and stuff." that's almost verbatum what i said. what a horrible response but i panicked. so then we danced next to each other for like 30 seconds, and she said she was going to go get her friend. i know enough about women to know that means i lost any chance i had. so i go back to simone and tell them how that Cougar just hit on me and how awesome it was. and me and Simone was like damn she is hot. She would do her! and told me that there was no way she was 44, cause she didn't look it at all. And that's no exageration, she did not look 44. she looked maybe 28 at most. But here is the thing, why would you lie about that, to make yourself significantly older then me, especially when i am clearly not that old. i dunno, but like 2 minutes later she actually came back with her friend and they were dancing together all hot like and stuff, and i kinda just watched and danced, and didn't do anything to introduce myself or continue the conversation at all. and about a minute later they mved to a different part of the dance floor. I'm still really excited about that, cause to link it with the story above, we both did our pickup lines to that one girl, so we were tied, but i got girls to approach me like a true pick up artist, and it was bad ass! So i clearly won, but i don't think i could have did it if mark wasn't there to make me want to beat him. but Mark has danielle so it wasn't like he was really going to try anyways. but apparently i found out in the car at the end of the night, the girl said to mark that he needs to work on his dance moves, and he should learn to dance more like me. which is funny cause he was trying to imitate me he said, and again i know i said it like 4 times, i was imitating the people on the screen, or what i thought was funny. I'm going to blame it how copy's of copy's never really turn out to great. thats what i think happened there.

anyways, the whole night we were playing games where like Simone would do something and then point to me, and i would do something and point to mark who would do something and point to Ang and so on and so on. that was a ton of fun also.Oh, and Simone taught us this game where like apparently you find someone who is just like ridiculous and you assign them to the other person's team. and the object is to have the least ridiculous team. well i have never played it, but Simone was like a genius at it, so it was awesome. She definetly won, but i think i had a couple good ones too. oh, and they did a couple songs from grease that night, but like an hour later we saw someone wearing like a leather jacket with like the black greased back hair and the glasses. it was so fucking awesome. that dude was my hero of the day, to bad we didn't see him till like an hour after that song played though. oh, and like i said 96.3 WDVD was there and they took our picture, and said they were going to post it on there website. we checked the next morning, but i didn't see it on there, but i figure, there not like us who would post it right away. i figure it may be up sometime on monday so i will try to find it then. i'll prolly make it my new facebook and myspace picture.

Anyways, it was prolly one of the best times i had since at least central western weekend or even longer. which i think is just funny, cause then i was hanging out with Simone and Mark also. I just love Simone and Ang, and i got guy love for Mark. I just can't get over how awesome it was. wish i coulda stayed home longer, and seen my family, but i was out at the party all night, and left for Mount pleasant directly after breakfast cause i had to work that day at 4:30. anyways i had such a good time i thought i would share.

Sun, 22 Feb 2009 02:53:51 GMT

And that's about the time she walked away from me
Nobody likes you when you're 23
And you still act like you're in freshman year
What the hell is wrong with me, my friends say I should act my age
What's my age again?

That's about the time that she broke up with me
No one should take themselves so seriously
With many years ahead to fall in line
Why would you wish that on me, I'll never wanna act my age
What's my age again?
What's my age again?

Tue, 27 Jan 2009 02:31:56 GMT

According to Variety James L. Nederlander, president, producer and theater owner at the Nederlander Org, has picked up theatrical rights to produce a musical theater version of Michael Jackson's "Thriller."

The score will consist of songs from Jackson's 1982 album "Thriller" as well as from his 1979 LP "Off the Wall." "Thriller the Musical" will be based on the 1982 "Thriller" video, about a wholesome young couple whose date goes awry when one of them turns into a werewolf.

It's still early the game for this production. No creative team has been attached yet and there's not word on when development will begin.

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 19:16:52 GMT

ok, so i was watching a star wars video on Collegehumor.com where it was like what if admral ackbar had a maurry povich type show which was kinda funny, and here is the link to that.

http://www.collegehumor.com/video:1897626

but then i found this which i think is even better. If you have ever seen Legends of the Hidden Temple on nickelodean, this will be really funny to you.

http://www.collegehumor.com/video:1763746

there is also this funny one on youtube of another starwars refference.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3HrSN7176XI

Mon, 12 Jan 2009 04:10:48 GMT

are you fucking kidding me.

Ok, so apparently our apartment complex decided today would be a good day to require us to create a log in account to be able to access our internet from the apartment. Typically not something terrible, except for the fact, your only allowed to have one computer registered to use the internet, and even though you can still hook up a xbox and stuff, you have to call tech support to do that so they can add it to the available devices to access the internet. typically not that big of a deal, except they implemented it out of nowhere without passing out flyers or anything, and they implemented it on a day where both the office and tech support are closed for the day.

So even though i was in the middle of a game of civilization revolution on xbox live, playing my sister and for all intensive purposes, about to rape and pillage her villages, it just kicked me off the interent with no way to reconnect giving me a forfeit. I can not lose to her in a forfeit, this is bullshit. lol.

i did get to connect my computer, but still, if it came between having my computer on the internet and my xbox, the xbox would win. sadly enough.

no i am kinda mad about it, like they could have given us warning, or started it tommorow when both offices are open. also, its bullshit we can only have one computer connected. I mean, it would be different if it was possible for me to say fuck them and get a internet company to hook up my room, and have our own provider, but everything has to have the ability to hook wirelessly here or we can't use it, which is already gay. Now i can't have a laptop and a tower. And the signal strength isn't good either, and i'm just mad we don't have an alternative.

This is why i thought i heard something about a law a while ago that they were looking to pass, where apartments couldn't require you to go through a certain cable company. that they had to give you the option to shop around. I mean some people thought it was dumb because then you couldn't have apartments that gave off free wifi as an amenity, but when there internet is gay, i think it was a good idea. maybe i'll google what ever happened to that bill, since i can't kick my sisters ass at some civ.